Coalescing shapes reappear
Briefly, without words
Filling quiet moments.
The little boy who lost his soul
casts a faint shadow on the ground.
I tell stories from life fragments - arranging reality flat upon the page until it shows signs of order. Recently, the process has been here in this public space.
Saturday, April 9, 2016
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
As Peter the squirrel walked toward the male human's garden, he knew
what he was about to do was wrong; it might even get him killed.
It was too late to change his mind, his eyes would not focus on anything but the precious vegetables; the ones the male human so tenderly worshiped. Peter ducked under the small barrier fence, walked through the aging turnips wilting in the sun and approached the tall, manicured tomato plants; swollen, red fruit hung rich and heavy on the vines. Peter stood at the side of the plant for a moment, admiring the sculpted handiwork of the male human. Peter then began tearing the fruit from the vine, pulling each tomato off in the most destructive way, ripping the fruit apart and throwing it's red, bleeding carcass onto the brown earth. One tomato for ever humiliation heaped upon him over the years from the male human; one for every bark and scare from the male human's wicked dog, for the constant fear, the loss, for every time he had sat trembling from a near-miss. Peter tore and ripped, slinging the vile fruit in a blind rage; the rage no longer needed the catalyst of his flawed reasoning, simply rage and fear and anger and humiliation.
It was too late to change his mind, his eyes would not focus on anything but the precious vegetables; the ones the male human so tenderly worshiped. Peter ducked under the small barrier fence, walked through the aging turnips wilting in the sun and approached the tall, manicured tomato plants; swollen, red fruit hung rich and heavy on the vines. Peter stood at the side of the plant for a moment, admiring the sculpted handiwork of the male human. Peter then began tearing the fruit from the vine, pulling each tomato off in the most destructive way, ripping the fruit apart and throwing it's red, bleeding carcass onto the brown earth. One tomato for ever humiliation heaped upon him over the years from the male human; one for every bark and scare from the male human's wicked dog, for the constant fear, the loss, for every time he had sat trembling from a near-miss. Peter tore and ripped, slinging the vile fruit in a blind rage; the rage no longer needed the catalyst of his flawed reasoning, simply rage and fear and anger and humiliation.
At some point, perhaps for lack of eligible fruit, or forgetting
exactly why he started, Peter the squirrel began to regain a bit of his
sense -- sufficient composure to exit the garden, travel back up his
hometree, glance down at the carnage and enter his house. Peter laid
down on his cot, pulled the flannel sheets over his head and slept for a
very long time.
The first time I watched Fried Green Tomatoes, yes I've seen it more
than once, it was the scenery that struck me the most. The outside
shots, at least, were filmed in my old stomping grounds. There is one
location in the film, a river that is flattened out and spills over a
dam, causeway? Not sure what its purpose is, but it is an odd sight,
then and now. I remember the place vividly from my childhood. When you
walk across, one side to the other, the entire river spilling evenly
over the top, you get the sense that you are alternately walking on
water or falling sideways along with the water onto the rocks below.
Heaven and hell. Death and salvation.
Recently, I started watching another show filmed in Georgia. Lo and
behold, another body of water from my past, perhaps an even more obscure
one at that. The stream has, or at least had, a unique ecosystem. It
flows primarily through gorges cut into stone so it was not as friendly
to the mud loving varieties of fish swimming around the Peach State.
Usually, when you have a body of water in Georgia, it fills with all
sorts of fish, cannot keep them out. This stream with its smooth pockets
of clear water was home to only one kind of fish - a lanky, strong
perch I've never seen anywhere else.
In the movies, both places looked exactly as I remember them, every detail. Heaven and hell. Death and salvation.
In the movies, both places looked exactly as I remember them, every detail. Heaven and hell. Death and salvation.
"I must still be dreaming," thought Peter the squirrel, "What a ruckus!"
"No I'm not dreaming," pinching himself on the ribs, "what could be causing all this noise?" he thought.
Peter threw back his burlap bed sheet and walked over to the small round window facing the WolfAndMan garden. At this very early hour, and to his surprise, everyone that he knew was out near the garden; all the village people, the WolfAndMan, night creatures, day creatures, flying creatures, even the scurrying creatures were bravely defying the encroaching sun. No one seemed to be afraid of anything, not even fearful of the more menacing creatures in the crowd. What's more, they were all dancing and whooping like they just didn't care. Even Garden Snail who, on principle, never danced was dancing; he didn't even dance at that mandatory dance thing last year, which turned out to be a horrible mess; he was sentenced to seven days jail but enjoyed it so much that he refused to leave, which is also illegal and punishable by seven days jail... well you can see what a mess. Yes Garden Snail was dancing, even leading the dance with some crude song about a sailor's wife. He did not even seem to notice that WolfAndMan's wife had resorted to cartwheels and that he was standing within the general trajectory.
"No I'm not dreaming," pinching himself on the ribs, "what could be causing all this noise?" he thought.
Peter threw back his burlap bed sheet and walked over to the small round window facing the WolfAndMan garden. At this very early hour, and to his surprise, everyone that he knew was out near the garden; all the village people, the WolfAndMan, night creatures, day creatures, flying creatures, even the scurrying creatures were bravely defying the encroaching sun. No one seemed to be afraid of anything, not even fearful of the more menacing creatures in the crowd. What's more, they were all dancing and whooping like they just didn't care. Even Garden Snail who, on principle, never danced was dancing; he didn't even dance at that mandatory dance thing last year, which turned out to be a horrible mess; he was sentenced to seven days jail but enjoyed it so much that he refused to leave, which is also illegal and punishable by seven days jail... well you can see what a mess. Yes Garden Snail was dancing, even leading the dance with some crude song about a sailor's wife. He did not even seem to notice that WolfAndMan's wife had resorted to cartwheels and that he was standing within the general trajectory.
"Has
the world gone mad?" Peter thought watching several village people
heartily stomping on his buried walnut patch, "ack... there goes my
nuts."
"Oh... so you better not wink at the sailor's wife!" Garden Snail bellowed.
"Oh... so you better not wink at the sailor's wife!" Garden Snail bellowed.
Lap
lap lap, the river keeps time against our craft, pulling us through the
dense forest. Lap lap, lap, it strokes the muddy banks on either side
of us, moving earth in and out of the reddish-brown artery. On this
third day of our journey, just past the sun's apex, we round a bend in
the river. The forest darkens, the sounds of the river become muted. Our
guide, crouching at the rear of our raft, moves us close to the bank on
the left, places his right hand on his throat, closes his eyes and
produces a long, deep guttural sound. Within a few seconds we hear
several creatures in the forest responding with the same unhuman sound.
Our guide tells us that we are now entering the Other.
In less than an hour, we witness the first creatures belonging to this strange place.
In less than an hour, we witness the first creatures belonging to this strange place.
Friday, February 27, 2015
Sheila was having a better than average day. She'd felt well enough to locate Tramps leash and take him for a walk.
As she stood on the side of the field, one among the long evening shadows, everything stationary was stationary and pretty much where the universe had put it. She could not shake the feeling, however, that without Substance D, she was drinking the pastoral scene out of a stale paper cup.
As she stood on the side of the field, one among the long evening shadows, everything stationary was stationary and pretty much where the universe had put it. She could not shake the feeling, however, that without Substance D, she was drinking the pastoral scene out of a stale paper cup.
Monday, February 9, 2015
Friday, January 30, 2015
Jay was kneeling down beside an old car in Mark's driveway. He had a
can of Armor All in one hand and an old cloth in the other. He was
rubbing the liquid into the ashy-gray bumper.
Mark came out of the house and stood at a slant behind Jay. He watched silently for a bit.
"Man I've never, our whole life, known you to wash your own car," he said, "and here you are wasting good Armor All on this piece of junk."
Jay kept coaxing the oil into the bumper. It was now turning a splotchy, but darker color.
"I remember this black plastic bumper from when we were kids," Jay said, "your brother used to park it here or over on A Street when he was dating Carol. It always looked wet, even in the hot sun. Almost looked alive."
Mark watched Jay a while longer, made a clicking noise, then went back into the house.
Mark came out of the house and stood at a slant behind Jay. He watched silently for a bit.
"Man I've never, our whole life, known you to wash your own car," he said, "and here you are wasting good Armor All on this piece of junk."
Jay kept coaxing the oil into the bumper. It was now turning a splotchy, but darker color.
"I remember this black plastic bumper from when we were kids," Jay said, "your brother used to park it here or over on A Street when he was dating Carol. It always looked wet, even in the hot sun. Almost looked alive."
Mark watched Jay a while longer, made a clicking noise, then went back into the house.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
these are the words
these are the secret words
held deep underground quivering ember glowing
with key lost in youth
these are the secret words
held deep underground quivering ember glowing
with key lost in youth
words that flicker in candlelight
whispered frighteningly and apologetically
at the end of prayers
gasping and wheezing unholy words
that rise from deathbeds
upon a world unbreakable and broken
these are the words that hang
in clouds on winter walks
retold in dimly lit forests for eternity
whispered frighteningly and apologetically
at the end of prayers
gasping and wheezing unholy words
that rise from deathbeds
upon a world unbreakable and broken
these are the words that hang
in clouds on winter walks
retold in dimly lit forests for eternity
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Thursday, September 25, 2014
Dustbunny limped down the street where Titmouse lived. He came to a
stop in front of her apartment. Two little girls were sitting on the
cement steps in front of her apartment. Both looked down at his weak
leg, one whispered to the other and they both giggled. Securely holding
on to the rail, Dustbunny executed the painful and embarrassing climb up
to Titmouse's front door and rang the bell.
He could hear Titmouse coming to the door.
"Hi," she said, a little out of breath.
He could hear Titmouse coming to the door.
"Hi," she said, a little out of breath.
"Hey... I haven't heard from you in a while so I thought I would walk over and see how you are doing."
"I'm fine," replied Titmouse, "I've kinda been busy."
"Would you like to go get an ice cream or something?" Dustbunny shifted weight onto his bad leg for a moment. He could hear the little girls giggling again. He flushed.
"Yeah. Let me get ready, I'll be right out." Titmouse left Dustbunny with the porch, the handrail, his bad leg and the giggling girls.
She came back to the door quickly, however, with a sweater draped over her arm. She took Dustbunny's hand softly in hers, shooed the girls from off the porch and they walked slowly down to the road.
"I'm fine," replied Titmouse, "I've kinda been busy."
"Would you like to go get an ice cream or something?" Dustbunny shifted weight onto his bad leg for a moment. He could hear the little girls giggling again. He flushed.
"Yeah. Let me get ready, I'll be right out." Titmouse left Dustbunny with the porch, the handrail, his bad leg and the giggling girls.
She came back to the door quickly, however, with a sweater draped over her arm. She took Dustbunny's hand softly in hers, shooed the girls from off the porch and they walked slowly down to the road.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Dustbunny
spent the idle, late summer evening smoking opium from a small wooden
pipe, the lazy, gray-white smoke wafting over the already still hive
within his head. His thoughts remained unchanged, frozen from progress
or decay. Progressive decay.
Decay for progress, or the soft lack of it. Or something. Or as he recalled, nothing. Curling rising. Lift shift dissipate.
The universe resized itself to fit only the contents of his one room cottage. Basking in the half-space of things, the marching of time also became lost in thoughts.
But then he remembered his pipe and remembered not remembering and the things he chose not to remember came back sweetly and gently, cushioned and without malice -- each thought in its time, lifted from the hive within his mind, dancing unthreateningly in the smoke filled space that was he and that he occupied.
Decay for progress, or the soft lack of it. Or something. Or as he recalled, nothing. Curling rising. Lift shift dissipate.
The universe resized itself to fit only the contents of his one room cottage. Basking in the half-space of things, the marching of time also became lost in thoughts.
But then he remembered his pipe and remembered not remembering and the things he chose not to remember came back sweetly and gently, cushioned and without malice -- each thought in its time, lifted from the hive within his mind, dancing unthreateningly in the smoke filled space that was he and that he occupied.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Ran
into an old friend in a dream Friday night. Haven't seen him since my
late teens. He is the kind of guy that shows up too often in thoughts
and dreams, as if the remembrance of him is a metaphor of some sort. He
looked troubled in the dream and not able to gather the fragments of his
life between when we lost touch in our teens and Friday night. Old and
tired, he spoke a forgotten phrase, a dream words that never copy to
the page quite right.
I replied something in the nature of, 'It will be OK', again in dreamspeak, where a single word can expand to near infinity.
He calmed, faded, then disappeared. I woke up to a new feeling that with a bit of sorting, all might be OK.
I replied something in the nature of, 'It will be OK', again in dreamspeak, where a single word can expand to near infinity.
He calmed, faded, then disappeared. I woke up to a new feeling that with a bit of sorting, all might be OK.
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